I Think It's Time To Let it Go!

 

As the year 2013 kame to a klose I was forced to think about what leaving looks like. 

Leaving DC    Leaving Family     Leaving Friends     Leaving Work   

 Leaving Possessions     Leaving _____

I grow attachments to things. I grew up an only child and very possessive of what I owned. Mainly bekause my mother made me work my butt of for ANYTHING that I owned. A pen wasn't just a pen, it was an amulet into another dimension which I was able to forge my destiny through writing! So, naturally I always wanted them back. 

Therefore, when I had to empty out my storage unit and know that 95% of the things that I possessed I would NEVER see again I needed some assistance.

I began to think......

What will I want in 15 months?

       What will I remember I owned?

             What will I desperately need to?

                   Do I want to come back and have to figure out where to put this stuff?

                          Does anyone need anything?

                                 What's the significance of these things?

                                          How am I getting them to China? 

                                                 Will I even be able to use these things?

And when the answer to these kwestions yeilded an arousing: LET IT GO I did just that!

My storage was the gateway needed to get through this process and enter into the New Year ready to take on challenges. But, I didn't know that yet. 

I began to unsubskribe to email accounts, delete phone numbers, and delete piktures from my phone

This process was hard for me bekause that meant I had to let go of some people, and though people aren't possessions the people I surround myself with are a part of me. Therefore, when you are inserted into my life as a friend, you are not just a friend. You are my family

And, when breaking ties with people who you konsider family it feels for a moment as if you are losing a part of you.

This was an instrumental revelation. I was the first time that I actually believed and understood that everyone isn't in your life for good reasons and that people can exist in seasons. A hard truth...but a necessary konfrontation with reality.

This purging of things was further konfirmed in my attendance at church on Sunday (The Awakenings Movement) where the kommunication spoke of exactly this! I was able to transfer my relinquishing of possessions and people to EVERYTHING. 

The Truth Kommunicator deklared that Letting Go! was/is the key to success. God gave him this message which pierced my eardrums loud and klear.This message revealed my weakness of holding on only to remind me that the journey begins once we LET GO. A former message was referenced,

"Forgiveness means refusing to tell the story one more time"

Another poignant revelation for me bekause in order to fully let go you have to aktually LET GO

Everything I heard konfirmed that I kan komplete the tasks through HIM that I'm not komfortable doing myself.

And this letting go wasn't going to be so bad after all bekause in order for me to gain anything during this new chapter of my life I have to be able to let it ALL go. 

I KUDA kept everything and held on to things that weigh me down

I SHOULDA disposed of things in a way that would've been more beneficial to others

I'm GONNA kontinue on the journey of letting go and inspire others to ask themselves hard questions so that they are able to relinquish things which are stifling their progress.